An Update

Alright - as requested, the current thoughts of Kayla Kutz. Nothing "deep", just what's on my mind

Yesterday I went and had my fun little meeting with Mr. Bangert about college and senior year, that sort of thing. It was overall quite uneventful... he asked if I had any idea where I wanted to go, I said a private school, he asked what I wanted to do, I said I wasn't quite sure. This meeting, however uneventful, represents the source of some anxiety for me: what I'm going to do with my life. Everyone has their opinions to give... my parents are encouraging me to go into the medical field - with good reason. Job security, not having to live paycheck to paycheck, an honorable title... who would blame them for wanting that for their child. I've been doing this "medical explorers" program at waukesha memorial... it's cool... I get to job shadow, see fun stuff like pacemakers put in and everything. If there's something not so educational that I've taken from it, though, it's that I dont really like hospitals. They just seem too cold and sterile for my liking. Mr. Wiegert suggested that I become an elementary band teacher : ). I personally really like this idea - I love music, like to teach, and have a good amount of patience with kids. When I presented this to my mom, however, she said that I would not be making the most of my talents.

And so, here is my dilemma: to find a job that I can really enjoy, and that makes sufficient use of what I'm good at... and that my parents can respect. They're so concerned about the money part... "If you can get a high-paying job that you'll enjoy, why wouldnt you pick that over a low-paying one?" Aka why teach when I could be a doctor, or something of the sort. I'm not sure I know the answer... it all makes for a very clouded future.

But back to the present. I'm really hoping my parents let me go to church tonight... I havent communed for three weeks and it's driving me crazy! Singing about it is certainly wonderful, but nothing beats the true body and blood of the Lord. On the bright side, I did get to pray compline... in a chapel, in the company of some awesome people... with incense! most definately the highlight of my week : ) I've been given quite a blessing in the lot of you.

So there you have it... the current joys and anxieties of Kayla Kutz. Hehe oh yeah - here's one of those awesome things I didnt mention before:

We praise You and acknowledge You, O God, to be the Lord,

The Father everlasting, by all the earth adored.

To You all angel powers cry aloud, the heavens sing,

The cherubim and seraphim their praises to You bring:

"O holy, holy, holy Lord God of Sabaoth;

Your Majesty and glory fill the heavens and the earth!"

You, Christ, are King of glory, the everlasting Son,

Yet You, with boundless love, sought to rescue ev'ryone:

You laid aside Your glory, were born of virgin's womb,

Were crucified for us and were placed into a tomb;

Then by Your resurrection You won for us reprieve-

You opened heaven's kingdom to all who would believe.